Wednesday, January 11, 2023

Can’t stop, won’t stop . . .

 

AN IDEA OF IMPROVISATION ON THE LIBERTY BRIDGE

Maybe you’ve already heard about how

one night I allegedly gave Emily a ring 

of rust on the windowsill of her heart, 

or how I couldn’t see that her name could 

begin with the number e, but let’s not 

pretend that she, my ex in cat glasses 

and a floral sundress, didn’t hand me back 

that bundle of fresh daisies, then dash 

across a bridge—frfr—just as my iPod 

played Ahmad Jamal’s cover of “Wave.” 

Both waves & tears can be falling water. 

A wave can be water or a flag rippling. 

Some flags can be read. And surely as 

the Em Dash is named for Dickinson, 

before wrestling with her texts, maybe 

I should’ve taken an ESL course: Emoji 

as a Second Language. Perhaps she fled 

because I didn’t know the difference 

between semaphore & metaphor or 

perhaps because I couldn’t play a more 

dominant chord, or perhaps she simply 

longed for the longer fingers of a pianist 

to key the silent C of her efflorescence.

Maybe I crossed a cantilever bridge on a

“murmuring day” in May to toss a bouquet 

of daisies into the Monongahela. Perhaps 

a certain nose accumulated a few scents 

toiling overtime in the olfactories, but why 

did my Beloved flee after Jamal finished 

fingering falling water? Here I should be 

frank, right? Forget that, even if it’s true,  

I didn’t misread Emily due to the wavy sines 

piercing my ears. Simply say, in place of 

her neck I nosed a bottle-blue scarf she’d left 

on the arm of a sofa. A steel cantilever 

here only holds up reality. Who could’ve 

smelled farewell before she high-heeled 

out the door? Before late sunlight outlined 

her path and I came to believe in God as

a metaphor for magenta or a sugar pill? I still 

can’t imagine tears as more than waves 

of salt water under the bridge of my glasses. 

Didn’t Emily beg us to “dwell in possibility” ?

Is it too late to say I didn’t see the name of Jamal’s 

next song until crow’s wings darkened the day’s 

eye or why my heart skipped to flag a refrain 

that almost rhymed with the fragrance of daisies?


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